Clifford castle.

I wanna tell you about this castle in York. it really made a big impression on me.

a long time ago, under the rule of king Alexander, all Jews were persecuted in England. on March 16th, 150 Jews and Jewesses hid in this castle from an approaching mob. they chose to die in each others arms rather than surrender to the persecutors.
the idea of them killing each other, rather than surrendering impresses me, and terrifies me. i can imagine it so well:
late at night, the fear of the approaching mob, all these people huddled together in the small castle - their last hope. the mob coming nearer. making the decision to kill themselves. the desperation. but i cant picture them actually killing themselves, i cant imagine that.