Oranges

when i don't eat treats
or buy new clothes
or watch stupid movies

and when the house is full of people
who dont listen
and who dont respect me
when nobody sees things the way i do.

when my sister calls me of
makes me gag
and steals my other sister

when my friends are miles away
partying
bonding

or when i suddenly looked stupid
although i used to look good
and start laughing at myself because nobody respects me

or when you have a blur of work
and so many other things you never get done
and when your tired of a trend

when it feels like your only joy in life is the orange in your mouth,

then i look outside at the trees
and inside
and i look at my reflection in my sisters eyes
i turn to my writing and drawing and working
and then i sleep with music in my ears
snatch away my little sister, all for my self
read blogs and books
and dream a little
and write down my dreams
in the hope they might come true.