we want nothing

i have no energy, i dont get it, im in dk, holidays and everything, just went shopping, bought great things and im just happy that the clothes actually fit so i dont have to worry about buying something stupid. i just finished watching amazing tv and now i feel empty again. the house is full of family, i mean i love them all, but i have pulled myself away, im not in the mood, so i feel alone. writing this blog was the only thing i really wanted to do. but its good, i know this is turning in to something better. i think that right now, all my usual sources of happiness are being disappearing: food, clothes, movies... but i think its because im discovering something even better.